Reflections on the end of a career

18
May
2009

‘RSSmith’ posted this reflection on our message board, but I thought it was worth more prominence, so here it is on the front page. He’s the dad of a Johns Hopkins player, but I think the sentiment can apply to any team in any sport.

I drove home last night from the South Regional of the NCAA Division III National Championship Tournament where I watched my son play in his last college baseball game. His team lost 11-7 in the title game. When I got home around midnight, I drank a beer before going to bed. Beer doesn’t taste as good when your kid’s team loses. I thought about how fast those four years flew by and how much my son had grown. He added an inch in height and thirty-five pounds in weight. He added five miles-per-hour to his fastball (but in my opinion, he lost some movement on it). He added enough whiskers to his chin to achieve “scruff”, and he added enough years to his age to get served at the local hangout using his own ID. He added several hundred friends to his Facebook page and several hundred words to his vocabulary—words like “grit” and “commitment” and “dependability”. He learned that “camaraderie” is not just about sharing laughs with your teammates (there were many) but also tears (there were some).

I got up this morning and did something I haven’t done in four years—cleaned out the trunk of my car. You see, we always took my car to the game.

The first thing I pulled out of the trunk was an old laundry basket that contained hooded sweatshirts, ear muffs and gloves, a blanket, some towels, and a yellow rain slicker that I paid way too much for at the University Bookstore because I needed to be standing at the fence for a double header in a persistent drizzle. We won’t be needing that gear in the trunk anymore because now we don’t have to go to games if the weather is bad.

I took out the folding picnic table and lawn chairs and put them away. It will seem really strange from now on to get that table out and put sandwiches on it and not have thirty-five dirty, sweaty, smelly baseball players line up to grab some food and act like it was the best meal they ever had in their lives.

I found a folder with several dozen MapQuest printouts to places like Collegeville, Pennsylvania; Danville, Virginia; Salisbury, Maryland; and Appleton, Wisconsin. I started to throw it away, then I thought, “No, it would be fun to go back to those places.” I recalled some lines from a Robert Frost poem about “knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back,” and I threw the folder out.

There were several large bags of sunflower seeds that never made it into the dugout basket. I think I’ll give those to the Little Leaguer down the street so he can start honing that particular baseball skill. I’m sure his mom won’t mind.

I found my white baseball cap with the blue jay on the front. It had been relegated to the trunk after a determination that its good luck value was limited to non-conference games at Homewood.

As I was about to shut the trunk, my neighbor spotted me and walked over. Finding me bleary-eyed and sniffling, he asked if I was okay. I smiled for him and explained, “Allergies.”

3 Responses to “Reflections on the end of a career”

  1. Ryan Coleman Says:

    Wow. I am not sure I can put my thoughts down here, but I will try.

    RSSmith, what you wrote I am sure many parents, and even some players, experience every year. This may be akin to the coach of 5, 10, 25 or more years retiring and handing the reigns over to another coach to pick up and carry the program for hopefully as long as the retiring one had.

    I never played in a game after junior high, myself, but I know that both of my brothers did. Both played through the summers (Pat played VFW and Neil, I think, did a little of that and Legion) but neither picked up a bat afterwards for much more than family backyard wiffle ball or company softball teams.

    Maybe someday one of the three of us will share a similar experience. I look back now and it’s hard to imagine the last time I suited up and took the field for a game was 1995 – half a lifetime ago.

    Cherish those memories, hold on to the mementos, maybe write more on your experiences, scrapbook the photos, programs and smaller physical memories. Our careers may be over, but for many of us we have sons, daughters, nieces and nephews and grandchildren to follow through their playing days.

    RSSmith, thank you for the touching post.

  2. jsackmann Says:

    That’s a great story.

    The Hopkins team was the highlight of my Appleton trip last year. It’s a shame they won’t be back this year. I don’t have any personal connections to the team or the school, but I was rooting for them all the way.

  3. Spence Says:

    Great story.

    One of my favorite poems there as well.

    Two things: you would not have liked to go back to Danville, Virginia (I lived there for 2 1/2 years), and you should go back to Appleton, Wisconsin. It’s a great town, and IMO the experience of the Series is worth it even your team isn’t involved. I say that not having gone when my team wasn’t in it, but I’ve stayed around for many games that didn’t involve my team, either as a fan or as a freelancer.

    Good luck to your son in getting the most out of his I’m sure outstanding education, and to you in figuring out how to spend your springs. :)

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